I am back lol

well two days with no posts and i am back. i have officially decided that i don't wan to add everything from my journal here lol. it's too muc h work and i have been feeling lazy lately. as far as some stuff i owe myuself at least one public affirmation for to day so i'm gonna try to do that lol....hmmm....the affirmation of the day is: i am strong, i am vibtrant, i am full of life, i have everything i need to be happy and more to day i am unstoppable!
Yeah that's a good one i needed it lol. so what has happened, hmm nothing of importance i guess. i have just been sitting around being lazy paying bills and pretending like that it doesn;t bother me to be broke. but we all know the truth because even for those of us who put little emphasis on how much mooney we have it creates great stress when we have none. in a sense i envy the people in third world countries who have no idea what its like to have money and while they may not like being poor they are surrounded by only the poor and (i know this because i have a friend from the phillipines ane he told me) they dont not know envy the way we americans do. i admit i feel envy when i see a family or a person with a house that's suitable to their family size and enough food and a car and all the little things that look like fun but i dont have because i can;t afford them. but i also i am so thankful for what i do have because i do have a home even if it's small and i do have food even its not exactly what i want and i have some toys that i am lucky to have because i know people. and i am happy and that is one thing i don't envy of the rich i believe they are not that happy. they do not know true joy because being rich causes them to focus on the grabage that comes with wealth. so while i am poor by american standards i am rich filipino standards but none of that matters because i am happy, i have my family and my health and enough common snese not go into too much debt and i am thankful always thankful everyday for the love of my God and ability to wake up to a new day and hopefully have a new experience. LIFE IS GOOD
yes today is already a good day and it has only just begun, what will happen later i can not know but i am looking forward to it because even if it's bad at least it's a lesson learned. thank you and God bless.